The Spirit is Willing . . .

People keep commenting on how well I look.  Having thanked them for their kindness, I suggest it's probably my rosetia.  It must be something in the genes. My maternal grandfather and great uncles were never very wrinkled in their 70s and 80s and as for my father . . .   I remember phoning my Dad, aged 89, and his telling me he'd stopped driving his car to the supeermarket.  I was just thinking to myself that was probably a good thing when he added, "Yes, it's too bloomin' difficult to park. It's easy to ride my bike."

 Well, sadly I'm not riding my bike and I'm now finding my energy level is quickly depeleted and slow to recover.  At first I thought it was an age thing.  A doctor once said that I was growing older faster than my tumours are growing bigger.  And they're still slow growing, though they are multiplying.  Since 2015 I've had a regrowth of one on the area the kidney was removed and multiple tumours in both lungs. More recently they've developed in my pancreas, upper humerous, thyroid, bum, heart, my upper scalp, ear and most recently my brain.  Apart from my upper left head, which is tender to touch and there's pulse in my left ear like a grandfather clock, none of the tumours are giving me problems and they continue to be slow growing.  I have accepted treatment, steroids, at the lowest possible dose, but have continued to decline chemotherapy as this would worsen my physical condition and would not be more than a palliative.

Yesterday I mentioned to my hairdresser the posibility of my having radiotherapy, which my oncologist us investgatng.  She treats my creanial lump very gently but I wondered how she'd feel if I had a large area of my hairline exposed to the world.  I was relieved she wasn't at all phased by the throught.  She is a very good hairdresser.  On helping me on with my gillet she kindly asked, "Bad arm first?"  I replied, "That's not my bad arm, it's my 'cared for arm'. 

Love to you all.

Brian

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